I laughed from the bottom of my heart..

The best gift you can have is the freedom to laugh from the bottom of your heart with no troubles when you are with your loved ones.
I did yesterday at the very few minutes i spent my time with my best friend. Its amazing how many people have come into my life and no one has ever reached up to his standard of making me feel happy just the few minutes we spent together.
I did.
I really did!

It brings back nostalgic moments at the 157 bus stop. The 143/66 busstop. The countless long walks we had and the countless excuses we made to walk just to talk more. All just for the friendship!

Everywhere i go, i see a familiar face. But its not the same looking at you. But then there is nothing gonna be betwee us more than friendship in our lifes.

We have drifted slightly now. But i like the distance we have now. It allows me to look at you from the outsiders point of view and respect you more.

I respect ya.

I envy ya.

I hate you too for the non stop nonsense u give me every time/night i call ya! Haha but then underneath all the harsh u lies the soft person who cares the most for me! Thank you..

I am missin you already..

The last month of the year!

I must really say that the last month of the year was the most memorable! I had so many changes in my life within this time frame that now i feel a total different person.

2nd Dec- Standard Chartered Run!!

The run that i was so eagerly waiting for! Never train never do anything and i finished the race in about one a half hours. And definietly it is an achievement for me since i never run for sucha looong time!
It is a sun.. and i feel damn funny cos i still cannot believe that 24th has passed..haha

3rd Dec

Went to catch The Tatooist by impulse and regretted so much at the end of the day. Waste of my precious time & money. I should have just sat down in sch and studied for my paper on the 5th!

5Th Dec

2nd paper and the last paper!DIdnt know whether it was the curse of the people or what, i just felt both the papers were not done properly..oh lord help me with my results!
I remember it was the last day of exams for me & Usha and we were simply having so much of crazy time. She might have cursed me for asking me to take crazy shots of me jumping all.. and Usha did try to act like me and kinda failed in it..haha true Usha?
Gangka and Hema left for India..

6th Dec

Meihui myself and Zonghong went back to Bendemeer Secondary School to eat at the nearest coffeeshop we always go! Haiz..we were damn sad!! Cos the shop was closed.. It was time we started planning for our 4E1 class outing..all for u peiwennnn :p Awesome darlings! mmuaH!

7th Dec

Anand karapayya's birthday! everybody are getting old. And i cant wait to go Sailaja's birthday the following day! 8th Dec! must call venket and plan plan! :p and i still haven passed Chris's birthday gift!

8th Dec-Sailaja's birthday & Narpani Pearavai Deepavali dinner & Anand's birthday celebration at Jeanz

There are 3 things to go for now.either i go eeelang, or split myself into three(which is soooo impossible like duh) or choose to go for one!
I really didnt want to go for the NP Dinner thing but then it was in a cruise and manish was going. He kinda psychoed me to go. and at the end i ended up there and trust me, i didnt regret a bit going there! Met alot of new people-something that i love and it became a all VP outing for all the 3 societies since all the presidents cldnt make it on that day!! haha i loga and manish had one hell of a time making ourselves busy just by being ourselves! I even met mr sweetheart's father there and haha he is sucha nut crack and sang funny songs. And yes i cant forget Karthik's father Mr somu and his semi R(A) joke! haha
by the time the cruise came back to Singapore, we just didnt had the heart to leave the placeand it was already 1130pm. So i really cldnt go to Sai's birthday and ended up at Anand's party at Jeanz. It was after 15weeeks i entered a club again, just for you Buddy! :)

9th Dec- i revived my business idea...

Its time for a comeback :)

Also met again for planning and booking of barbecue pit for 4E1 class gathering. Myself Meihui Zonghong and Peiwen :)

10th Dec

Lunch cum 29th comm meeting at Sam's place! Back to business!

11th Dec

The night where i stopped talking to my father..

12th-16th Dec - Langkawi/Penang Trip

The limited space here will never do justice to the amount of fun i had in Langkawi. It was just simply great people and awesome company!


17th Dec
We celebrated Kuppeh sara's Birthday! It was really fun!!! :) We all love ya Sara!!!

18th Dec
First order after 6months :)

22nd Dec-2nd last Sat of the year!

For some reason after sooo long Mowgli asked me out! So since i didnt had much to do and finally our plan of trying out the GMAX was gonna happen.. i agreed to go out that night.

The plan was to just walk walk around clarke quay and finally try out the GMAX thingy . somehow since Chris was there haha we ended up in Asoka!

And cos of me everybody had to pay 20bucks cover charge.

Guess what happend? On my way there my shoes broke and the poor guys ran around searching for me for footwear at 1145pm and they had to waste time cos of that!

3 guys searching for a footwera for me! hmmm.. i was feeling damn bad! and i dun even know one of the 3 guys that much at all. Thank you guys!

Asoka: The new one at cuppage plaza is just not the same as the old one.. so pls dun regret!

And i regretted paying 20 for a cup of coke and entering that place! :p

23rd Dec

I screwed up a very big project that i was given to. Lost about $300 on the project. And i had to absorb it. i came to realise Mehraj will never learn :(

In the night after my meeting, i went to meet my 4E1 class people at east coast park. Though i was ther only for about an hour, i had so much of fun and catching up that i did! I realised we are all very different people now! Everybody have different goals in life..we are not the same 15 or 16 year olds back then.. and i am sad now sinec i am growing oldddd...:(

25th Dec

Biggest Deal done! Got back all the money i lost! :) Happy time to celebrate!

27th Dec-Results

for about 3days i told myself that i am quitting school and going elsewhere to start a tea kedai! haha And now i am damn happy with my results actually!!!! though i dropped a little weee bit :p

28th Dec- Dinner cum birthday celebration at Bavani Pillai's place

I had sooo much of funn and catching up to do and we had loads of fun watching SANGAE O7!! haha

FUNNN!! a very goood break before we start doing work!!!

29th Dec

I met a wonderful person called Sigeeta..

Last Sat of the year and it was spent on the best way by attending Kat's 21st! I just so cldnt join my langkawi trip clique cos of this. missed so much fun there but i dun regret gracing the occasion at kat's place. I so wanted to go to marian's place but i cldnt..sigh...

30th Dec
Finally, the news everone are waiting for.. supposedly the guy came to see me. We feel we wont suit each other, so there i put a full stop this wedding nonsense! Nothing until i finish my studies! I made up my mind, nobody can change it!
Today is Nandhini's sadengu! I so love how i looked today! And i simply love the girl. I am so proud to announce that she is my tuition kid and she will be my successor! I love ya darling!

31st Dec!

The last day of the year!! here ends my worries and troubles. I am going to have so much of fun at OLI's countdown volunteering there and i definitely did!

Bye bye 2007! Though you have been the most suckiest year in many people's life, you have also given the best to many! Lets welcome the new year with our arms wide open!

The last bit of the year...

Here are the updates..especially took some time off to finish off the post which is pending for hmm..quite some time... for particularly two souls: firstly Meihui and secondly Ibrahim! haha. Thanks for all those who are complaining how my blog is dead. That shows either i dun have time at all for myself or i have totally forgotten such a thing exist!

Oh well, here is a look into how happening my last bit of the year was.. trust me..it was!

18th Nov-Ayer Rajah CC Event

6 days before the big day-Mowgli's birthday. Everybody are looking forward for it. I am stressed! I haven ordered cake yet. Dancers were still a problem. I cldnt get through my darls Udaya.. And slowly my dancers were backing out from dance and now i was left with myself and Vicky. She was supposed to seee me today at school and i think she overslept. I cant touch her later in the evening too..what to do..haha. Amidst of all this, I had an event held at Ayer Rajah CC and guess what.. HAaha i was the 'Honorary Chief Judge' for some Art competition for the Pri and kindergarden students. Amongst all the stress, this was definitely a stress reliever seeing all the students do art and ME choosing the best one out of it! Fun fun! and of course, i had whole loads of fun doing an event with Manish and Rao. Things that i wanted to do with them. Finally i have a chance to work with these people. Though i do not have a single regret being part of the 29th committee of TLS, i have always wondered how does it feel to take up an event part of HS..hmmm...

Monkey-The Honorary Chief judge-Rao

22nd Nov-Prema's Birthday at Woodlands: Cavana

When everybody were slogging studying for their papers here i was at woodlands celebrating Prema Rao's birthday. Owoo yes she is Rao's sisteru! We had to have it cos we are donkey sisters and our monkey brother was the one treating us, so since we had the idea of burning a big whole in his pocket, we cldnt say NO to the outing!

I bet you felt funny reading the last paragraph. Cos i did with all those monkey and the donkeys all over the place.. ow well..whatever

23rd Nov

A day b4 THE day..and i have yet to finalise a dance group. Thanks to Kuppe i got his bro's group Killerbeez ready for Mowgli's birthday. Cake is settled and the dance group is settled. My expenditures kinda blew out of proportion. I have yet to go do something for myself. I dun even know what i am going to wera tom!!! its that bad! and i am totally broke.. How can these happen? Owoo well by tom it all will be fine somehow. I would just go with the flow.
Here i met Udaya at 2pm ( when i was supposed to meet her earlly in the morning at 9am!!) who was sucha darling and cancelled her show for Mowgli and set aside time for me since morning.. This is why i always felt that i have alot of angels around me who always protect me and stand my nonsense. We had our normal chit chatting session and a little wee bit of bitching session and finally settled down to do what we were supposed to do for the day. Hmm... to dance.. we settled for the maiya maiya song. 3 quarter into the song we realised its sucha shake yr booty kinda song and we realised its so NOT us and decided to do something random the next day! haa that was so us!

24th NOV 2007-Murali's 21st at Golden Landmark Hotel!

Here comes the BIG day. Just so cldnt make it for Rathi's father's Kavadi thing. Sorry babe. As much as i was excited..there were just so much of work to do! My blouse wasnt sewn. I didnt even know what i was wearing on that day! The cake needs to be collected! I haven drawn money to pay the dancers! I need to see whther i have money in my bank. I didnt even feel this bad for MY own 21st! oH lord! i was that pressurized.
Finally at 7pm, cake was there. Dancers were ther. Birthday boy was ready. Every tom dick and harry was ready but Mehraj wasnt ready as usual.
So just when i was about to change to my saree, i just realised i didnt bring an essential item along with me.. How bad can it get. But i have to somehow get myself ready because i might be called up anytime soon to give speech for him!! So somehow i got myself ready and went down just to realise a whole load of people were out there trying to sabotage me to get up on stage. How to with my saree like that?? Maybe i shud have foreseen that looong ago!
That particular night, i remember the emcee shouting out my name more than anybody's that i got confused whther it was my birthday or Murali's 21st?
Its sucha sad thing the trio: myself the birthday boy and chris were not able to eat da food for that night. So i have no comments on the food.
But definietly i had so much of fun because it was like seeing everyone under the same roof after so long! Trust me, if not for such events i think all of us will just drift away and lose contact!
And why am i getting excited over somebody else's 21st?
He is someone special. He has a place in EVERYONE's heart that is very special to him. Each and every one of them who were invited for that function will have the best to say about him. And i think he was send by the God to look after me and the many out there. Hmm tts what i feel sometimes..! But then he can be the most bloody damn @#$%^&* towards me if he wants to be. But who doesnt have a dark side?
I immensely enjoyed myself being part of the ORGANISING team of the party! Everybody came and wished me the best and congratulated me for the party being successful! I think thats the best gift a best friend can get from anyone! And b4 i forget, there is another soul who was running up and down and who is officially my rival in friendship , who is named CHRIS, who must also the bear the responsibilty of gaining credit for the success of the party! If nOt for you, many thing wouldnt have happend that night CHRIS!! thank you so much! I can be a bitch to ya but i really adore you for who u are..haha..i really DO! :p

25th Nov
Sad soul came all the way to sch to study and didnt had the mood to attend Santosh's 21st! Haiz what shall i tell him ah?

26th Nov
First paper: Cybercrime and society! Most suckiest paper i have ever done! Had the worst feeling coming out from the exam hall.. Please people, dun take that module!

After my paper just wen i was about to leave, Mr sweetheart called and asked me whether am i alright?
I was so shocked because the only reason why i wldnt be happy with will be my exam paper and he knows nuts about my school life. 5minutes into the conversation thats when i realised that a whole group of my friends were unhappy over what happened at Murali's Birthday!!!!
How shocking can it get.
Okay for those of you who came for his birthday, i understand that i planted a segment where 21 girls will come up to the stage to give him roses right?
When the emcee asked who will he pick among the girl, he called his best friend out!
The truth is he didnt mention my name, so a group of them were unhappy of it. As much as i am happy over the fact that there are so many of them who are concerned with me, i would like to make a point here. Firstly, i was not part of the 21 girls who gave him roses since i didnt want to, so how could he have called my name? And secondly we are just friends! so i really am not sad cos he never call me.
ANd i am very happy that he called out his childhood friend who is also his closest and MY very good friend out because he really adores her and i am fully aware of it!

But then i must really thank those handful of them who called me up and asked whether i amd find and here i say: Mehraj is very very very Happy that the party was a hit and thanking everyone who came for it!

It was definitely a memorable event for mots of us here!

28th Nov
The charity project that i was planning ofr finally kicked off today. Am very happy

I shouldnt have...

When i came back home just a few minutes ago.. i had full of regrets for the whole day....

For not waking up on time and going to school.

For not eating breakfast with Monkey Bro

For not following my sister home with my nephew

For not clearing my table before leaving my house

For not taking bus to sch and took a cab instead(which was so done in impulse)

For not photostating my notes

For going to clementi (which was sucha wasted trip since i couldnt do much about giving my phone for servicing)

**For joining a group of guys again to go for dinner ( Today was exceptional cos i was so silent in da dinner that i myself couldnt believe i can be this quiet!)

Oh well haiz..

I like the way you are...

Its Nov 16th 2007 and the year will be coming to an end real soon. Though it may look like as if we have another one more month to go, i am sure time will fly like no one's damn business and we will be celebrating christmas and soon 2008 will be here!

So many things have happened in this year alone, good and bad, that have created a huge impact the way i look at life.

One of the most important thing in my life are the people whom i keep in touch everyday and are those people who fill my mind and keep me occupied throughout the day. Many people have come into my life and have left within a blink of an eye. Some have came and left and came and left and keeps doing that like as if i dun have a heart. Some came and made me feel good. Some came and just refuse to leave my goddamn life and decided to haunt me.

Among those people, there is a group of them whom are very special to me,those i know for many years and those i just recently got to know better, needs to be thanked because they made me who i am today...



Meihui: The one who never fails to message and wait for me before cybercrime lecture evry week even though i never attend more than half the lectures. The one who always stood up for me even though i have failed to keep up with my promises to bring her out for either lunch or dinner. The one who always remembers me as her taosa. My Bunny, who knows me for the past 10years. The one who knows me in and out!



Murali: The one who is younger than me but wiser than me. The one who knocks sense into me and gets me back into track. The one who have spurred lots of interest in many things in my life. A wonderful partner to yap for hours. One who understands me totally and wants the best for me. Even though we never talk for days, we know we want the best for each other. Someone i adore and respect the most.My best friend!



Manish: For being the best monkey and listen to me whine non stop! For bringing out the child in me yet makes me feel like an adult and tells the best advice at the correct time. Someone who has alot of interest in doing adventurous stuff just like me.Someone whom i am going to spend alot of time enjoying my sats and suns at Ayer Raja CC! The best brother who is not my mother's son!



Meban: Haha one of those people i got to know in a very very short span of time. Its mostly im the one who does 90% of the typing and he responding to it. Someone who somehow answers all my qns patiently..haha one of those who makes my day just by saying a simple hello over msn. The one who make me feel guilty whenever i am wasting my time on msn and not studying! I feel blessed with my friendship with Meban the one with the most genuine smile and heart!:)

Anand: For being my half a Jammu! The most down to earth guy whom i have ever seen though he has all reasons not to be. I can assure anywhere he will remain the same wherever he goes. Though i know him for a super duper short period of time, he has been the! one to lbe there for me listening to me whine in my worst period of my life! I am sure he will get the most beautiful girl with the purest heart!


Rao!!: The one who taught me how to look at things differently! The one who bullies me always yet takes care of me :) The boyfriend who wants to get the best for his girl friend. The friend who has spent lots of time for his friend whenever she had an issue(thats meeee) hehe.. The friend who allow me to be who i am..the usual clumsy meeee and still doesnt mind about it! You will always be the best Rao!


Sara: For being sucha Kuppe! For being the bridge Guru! For lunching with me and making me laugh like crazy! For being patient with me for all the nonsense i have done! Among all the whacky talks lies a soft person who loves his gf alot! The species which needs to be experimented on! He definietly makes my day with his jokes! U rock my half a kannu!


Venket: The one who makes it a point to keep in touch with me and makes sure i am fine! The one with the most unselfish heart according to me. Someone other than Mowgli who knows lots of things that are happening in my life. My great listener! The prettiest boy i have ever met with sucha clear complexion which i am so jealous of! The one who makes my day by listening to me whine all day non-stop!My whining buddy!



Muthupechi!! aka my Gangka: For letting me use ur laptop!! hehe joking! For the purest heart you have. For the one who never complains about anything! For the one whom i can trust for any work to be done efficiently! The best room mate anyone can get!


Anand Kanasappa: For the one who showed love and was the bridge for many things to happen. The one who never fails to make me smile. For the one who shares the best and worst in life. The brother that i want in my life.


Rathi: For being the devi whenever i needed someone to talk! For being yourself and let me be myself. For the simple fact that our lives coincided!



Lavania: For the one never fails to make me feel happy and energized even on my saddest day! She really does!



Kalpana: For teaching me to take things easily. For teaching me to respect myself before anyone does.



Bav: I must thank her the most for bringing me into TLS. The character you have that anyone can die for!



Samantha: For the simple fact that u always love me without any condition!



Theepan: For always saving my ass and excusing and giving me leaways for many things!



Krishna: For the one who represented the meaning for passion.



Sara: The lovely one who taught me the value of friendship!



Hema: For the one who taught me how to express love



Chandra: For who you are. For the leader in you.


Usha: I dunno what i just love you


Vimala: You just being by my side

These are just people who came into my mind randomly. And they run in no accordance of importnace just that the first few start with the letter M. They are many many many many people in my life like Ragee, Levisha, Amudah and Priya and Alvin(how did i forgot you???) who has played big roles in my life. The list will just go on if i type everyone but i felt that those i have mentioned up there really do mean a lot to me and they were really there wen i needed help in one way or another!

Why did i enter this blog? Good question.. i also do not have an answer for it.. but i know if i dun stop here i will just go on..

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The battle has begun..

According to my schedule, my battle has already started on the 11th of Oct 2007, 1028pm( Those who are close to me will know the significance of the day). This blog is long due and i was supposed to have started it on the midnight of 11th of Oct. Apologise to the many souls who thought this is going to be out on that night..well i have officially entered my FIRST post for my very own blog!!Its definitely going to be another challenging and tiring yet a memorable year where 15 other individuals are going to leave behind new memories in my life. Out of these 15, two of them whom im very lucky to have them beside me, with the rest of the comm have decided to be with me to,

Fight

Cry

Work

Study

Argue

Play bridge.

Slack at YIH.

Listen to me whine.

Stay over in sch for events.

Cherish the successes that is going to follow the comm.

and

not forgetting to allow me to be myself and accept me for who i am.

With the new responsibilities and roles that i have created for myself, i realized i have more things to do now. With my best friend's 21st birthday party coming along real sooon, the dreadful exams, my long awaited Langkawi trip, the short film competition that is still in its initial stages of planning and my job are enough to kill me and leave me entangled in my own world. So i need to constantly remind myself that I SHOULD NOT TAKE UP ANY ANY ANY MORE THINGS to do like joining Manish and

becoming a part of the Ayer Raja CC youth wing.

Sometimes i wonder...

Actually no..

Almost everytime i wonder..

Whether should i employ someone to SHOOT ME if i volunteer to do anything or take up any more responsibilities even after knowing that i am fully booked..

I wonder how wonderful can it get if we have a button attached to ourselves that will allow us to stop and start thinking whenever we want.

Sometimes i wonder why i think such things.

Now i am wondering whether i should really do something about me wondering about all this now...